Hello my lovebugs, special darlings! Welcome to Episode 44, a continuation of our ongoing conversation regarding the tools and techniques, and processes of doing The Great Work of Journaling & Burning. As promised, I share my deeply personal self-clearing process in this Part 2 video of The Greatest Self-Clearing Process, ever.
The first step being: writing down/declaring your intentions.
First My intended goals were inspired by the latest backdrop of our collective worldly dramas: I want to be loved and treated with kindness and respect. I want to thrive, express, and share my creativity, engage in new practices that help maintain my healthy, youthful, and energetic body, and live in beauty and peaceful harmony with my environment, humanity, the planet, and the world.
Next step: list out my gifts and attributes that will support and allow for the materialisation /manifestation/fruition of my goals:
- I am smart
- I am awake and self-aware
- I am organised
- I follow through on what I intend
- I deliver
- I keep my promises
- I follow up
- I’m super responsible
- I am dependable
- I’m honest, trustworthy
- I’m the sanest person I know
- I’m straightforward, a straight shooter
- I’m hardworking
- I’m passionate
- I’m resourceful
- I am creative and expressive
- I’m intuitive
- I see beyond normal reality
- I’m playful
- I have a great sense of humour
- I’m easygoing
- I’m super positive
- I’m empathic and compassionate
- I take the high road
- I see the good in people
- I see people gifts even if they don’t
- I am generous
- I am forgiving
- I am magnetic
- I am magnanimous
- I’m kind
- I’m forthright
- I’m loving
- I’m heart-based
- I’m the perfect mix of left brain and right brain
- I’m a clear
- I am a deep, critical, logical thinker
- I’m a doer
- I’m helpful
- I’m a big picture person and detailed oriented
- I’m very calm
- I’m grounded
- I’m physically fit and healthy
- I have lots of energy
- I’m youthful
- I’m wise
- I’ve accomplished everything I’ve intended
- I know how to rock my life
- I’m multi-faceted, multi-talented
- I’m successful
- I thrive even in adversity
- I’m great with money
- I’m a fantastic manifestor
- My thought quality is top-notch
- I’m great at self-care
- I know how to take care of people
- I’m nurturing
- I have good boundaries
- I don’t take any shit
- I am honourable
- I have a strong moral compass
- I easily cut through the bullshit
- I am open-minded
- I am practical
- I am a great STRATEGIST
- I am not a flake
- I am not a snowflake
- I am not ruled by my emotions
- I am not impulsive
- I do not have an addictive personality
- I admit when I am wrong and apologise
- I am decisive
- I am supportive of others
- I am empowered
- I am empowering of others
- I create and share solutions
- I am inclusive
- I am brave and courageous
- I easily speak my mind
- I am real—warts and all
- I am transparent
- What you see is what you get
- I am a great Bridger and community builder
- I am entrepreneurial
- I am attractive
- I have positive energy
- I have a lot of energy
- I see through the veils
- I walk in and out of multiple realities
- I know right from wrong
- I am constantly learning and reading about new things
- I love mastering new skills
- I’m ballsy
- I face up to things
- I think out of the box
- I’m industrious
- I’m appreciative and thankful
- I’m prosperous
- I’m a magnet for awesome
- I live my bestest life
Next is My list of attributes that will absolutely hurt and sabotage and fuck up the materialisation/manifestation of my intended goals:
- I am controlling
- I am combative
- I am bossy
- I am dictatorial
- I am domineering
- I can be an authoritarian dick
- I’m suffocating
- I can be over-the-top dramatic
- I snooty
- I am bougie
- I can be ghetto and trashy
- I am always right
- I’m arrogant
- I’m a know-it-all geek
- I am rude
- I am elitist
- I’m impolite
- I play dumb sometimes
- I am didactic
- I’m nihilistic
- I’m fatalistic
- I can be a negative Debbie Downer
- I’m cynical
- I’m bratty
- I’m intolerant
- I can be objectifying
- I’m sexist
- I’m ornery
- I’m moody
- I’m inconsiderate
- I can be inconsolable
- I am hard to please
- I’m a pain-in-the-ass
- I can be angst and anxiety-ridden
- I’m petty
- I think I’m special
- I think I’m better than everyone
- I am dismissive
- I am judgmental
- I can be cutting
- I can be insulting and short
- I ghost people when I’m disappointed
- I can willfully ignore at will
- I am condescending
- I am irritable
- I can be tyrannical
- I can be crude with my potty mouth
- I can be offensive
- I can be a doormat
- I trust the wrong people
- I don’t trust people I should
- I’m a contrarian
- I can be blaming
- I can be shaming
- I’m willful
- I can be retaliatory
- I can be territorial
- I can be self-loathing
- I can be whiny
- I can be destructive
- I’m stubborn
- I am obstinate
- I can be materialistic
- I can be indignant
- I can be haughty
- I can be uptight
- I’m loud
- I’m obnoxious
- I can be doubting Thomas
- I get caught up in outing evil
- I can be vindictive
- I’m resentful
- I’m argumentative
- I’m overly confident
- I can be unsure and waffle
- I can be obtuse
- I can be depressing
- I can be a sad sack for days
- I’m paranoid
- I can hold a grudge
- I’m a provocateur trouble maker
- I’m an asshole
- I can be an emasculating bitch
- I can be cunty
- I will get even
- I seek vengeance for others
- I can make others wrong
- I can be violent
- I am brutally frank and hurtful
- I can be belligerent
- I have anger issues
- I am a rager
- I wanna fight
- I feel like hitting people
- I play devil’s advocate
- I push people’s buttons
- People bore me
- I’m disinterested
- I get tired and wanna give up
- I wanna just say FUCK THIS SHIT
- I hate the world
- I hate people
- I don’t believe in the good of the Universe or humans
- I’m skeptical
- I’m suspicious
- I hate liars
- I think the world is run by evil demons and psychopaths
- I get caught up in doom and gloom
- I sometimes believe evil will always win so what’s the fucking point?
- People only wanna use me for my resources
- I believe in the worst of people
- I am gullible
- I am needy of attention
- I am demanding
- I am cutthroat
- I am defensive
- I am hostile
- I am a bully
- I am a doormat
- I am naïve
- I am crazy
- I believe in nothing good
- I am superior
- I am inferior
- I am insensitive
- I am aloof
- I am competitive
- I am co-dependent
- I am dysfunctional
- I am too nice
- I put up with way too much bullshit
- I am exacting
- I am unforgiving
- I will take you out and take you down
- I am a victim
- I am physically aggressive
- I can be too passive
- I let people get away with shit
- I’m smarter than most everyone
- My Fuck you Fuck Off attitude is strong!
Whew!
These lists –this round of Self-Clearing, was very difficult for me to face. I’ve done hybrid versions of this process many, many, times over the course of the last thirty-plus years, and over the course of my own personal growth and evolution. I’ve made the assumption that processing gets easier as I get older, but honestly, that’s not necessarily true, especially when I’m processing through rough patches of great importance.
I spent a few days and then a day in isolation, reviewing my lists and owning my stuff and crying and journaling—I did a bunch of punching and kicking my 100-pound bag and did a bunch of square/polarities journaling exercises.
If you notice—my lists were very much polar opposites—indicating to me that I have all these qualities within me and that much of my Great Inner Work is about integrating these and moving into a NEUTRAL position so as to not get caught up in the pendulum swings and its whirly twirly spinning out of control.
After I made friends with my lists, I recited this prayer aloud, intending the following:
Mother Father God, Essence, Great Spirit, All that Is, I recognise my polarised states as Expressed through my Qualities of Light & Dark have existed in my Mind and ego patterning. I offer them up and ask that they are merged into a place of oneness and clarity – so that I may see more clearly who I really am, and so that I may live my highest truth and bring forth my most beloved intentions. I ask this with appreciation, knowing that my prayer has already been answered. ~ And so, it is.
In the face of what’s happening in our aggregate collective reality, I highly recommend undertaking This deep work, my friends. It’s the perfect way to Check yourself—Your Self-importance--arrogance and its opposites of Self-depreciation—Insecurities.
You will be required to make time and block out 48-72 hours to truly complete this process—so do plan your time accordingly. Make sure you have good food, your favourite treats, and water.
Create a beautiful space with incense and candles and nice lighting, and talismans and crystals available to help support your process.
Turn off WIFI, turn off your phone. Be available fully for yourself, only. If you have children, you may need to plan for child care or do you what you are able—or perhaps plan for another time.
Utilise all 7 of your Senses and when you feel tired, take a break and rest, take naps and baths and move your body with gentle exercise. Have your journal and pens at the ready. This process is the Ultimate in Self-Love and Self-care.
The steps once again are below in the description Box.
Ok, my lovebugs, that’s it, that’s my speech. I trust this is helpful and blesses you all with hope and clarity and compassion for the dancing of the Light and Dark with you. Particularly during this important time where the powers-that-wanna-be and their War for our consciousness-collective and individual—through their Divide & Conquer agendas—such that we turn against one another—are ON.
Let’s all do The Great Work—The Inner and Outer Great Work and collectively tell these demonic lower-astral plane entity mother fuckers to FUCK OFF.
We will continue this conversation—about The Great Work and learning how to invoke and activate your Superpower of Focus, master your Creative Energy, Materialise/Manifest Reality to rock your world on your terms regardless of the circumstances of the world at large.
I love you!