Hello my lovebugs, special darlings! Welcome to Episode 44, a continuation of our ongoing conversation regarding the tools and techniques, and processes of doing The Great Work of Journaling & Burning.  As promised, I share my deeply personal self-clearing process in this Part 2 video of The Greatest Self-Clearing Process, ever.

The first step being: writing down/declaring your intentions.

First My intended goals were inspired by the latest backdrop of our collective worldly dramas: I want to be loved and treated with kindness and respect. I want to thrive, express, and share my creativity, engage in new practices that help maintain my healthy, youthful, and energetic body, and live in beauty and peaceful harmony with my environment, humanity, the planet, and the world.

Next step: list out my gifts and attributes that will support and allow for the materialisation /manifestation/fruition of my goals:

 

  1. I am smart
  2. I am awake and self-aware
  3. I am organised
  4. I follow through on what I intend
  5. I deliver
  6. I keep my promises
  7. I follow up
  8. I’m super responsible
  9. I am dependable
  10. I’m honest, trustworthy
  11. I’m the sanest person I know
  12. I’m straightforward, a straight shooter
  13. I’m hardworking
  14. I’m passionate
  15. I’m resourceful
  16. I am creative and expressive
  17. I’m intuitive
  18. I see beyond normal reality
  19. I’m playful
  20. I have a great sense of humour
  21. I’m easygoing
  22. I’m super positive
  23. I’m empathic and compassionate
  24. I take the high road
  25. I see the good in people
  26. I see people gifts even if they don’t
  27. I am generous
  28. I am forgiving
  29. I am magnetic
  30. I am magnanimous
  31. I’m kind
  32. I’m forthright
  33. I’m loving
  34. I’m heart-based
  35. I’m the perfect mix of left brain and right brain
  36. I’m a clear
  37. I am a deep, critical, logical thinker
  38. I’m a doer
  39. I’m helpful
  40. I’m a big picture person and detailed oriented
  41. I’m very calm
  42. I’m grounded
  43. I’m physically fit and healthy
  44. I have lots of energy
  45. I’m youthful
  46. I’m wise
  47. I’ve accomplished everything I’ve intended
  48. I know how to rock my life
  49. I’m multi-faceted, multi-talented
  50. I’m successful
  51. I thrive even in adversity
  52. I’m great with money
  53. I’m a fantastic manifestor
  54. My thought quality is top-notch
  55. I’m great at self-care
  56. I know how to take care of people
  57. I’m nurturing
  58. I have good boundaries
  59. I don’t take any shit
  60. I am honourable
  61. I have a strong moral compass
  62. I easily cut through the bullshit
  63. I am open-minded
  64. I am practical
  65. I am a great STRATEGIST
  66. I am not a flake
  67. I am not a snowflake
  68. I am not ruled by my emotions
  69. I am not impulsive
  70. I do not have an addictive personality
  71. I admit when I am wrong and apologise
  72. I am decisive
  73. I am supportive of others
  74. I am empowered
  75. I am empowering of others
  76. I create and share solutions
  77. I am inclusive
  78. I am brave and courageous
  79. I easily speak my mind
  80. I am real—warts and all
  81. I am transparent
  82. What you see is what you get
  83. I am a great Bridger and community builder
  84. I am entrepreneurial
  85. I am attractive
  86. I have positive energy
  87. I have a lot of energy
  88. I see through the veils
  89. I walk in and out of multiple realities
  90. I know right from wrong
  91. I am constantly learning and reading about new things
  92. I love mastering new skills
  93. I’m ballsy
  94. I face up to things
  95. I think out of the box
  96. I’m industrious
  97. I’m appreciative and thankful
  98. I’m prosperous
  99. I’m a magnet for awesome
  100. I live my bestest life

 

Next is My list of attributes that will absolutely hurt and sabotage and fuck up the materialisation/manifestation of my intended goals:

  1. I am controlling
  2. I am combative
  3. I am bossy
  4. I am dictatorial
  5. I am domineering
  6. I can be an authoritarian dick
  7. I’m suffocating
  8. I can be over-the-top dramatic
  9. I snooty
  10. I am bougie
  11. I can be ghetto and trashy
  12. I am always right
  13. I’m arrogant
  14. I’m a know-it-all geek
  15. I am rude
  16. I am elitist
  17. I’m impolite
  18. I play dumb sometimes
  19. I am didactic
  20. I’m nihilistic
  21. I’m fatalistic
  22. I can be a negative Debbie Downer
  23. I’m cynical
  24. I’m bratty
  25. I’m intolerant
  26. I can be objectifying
  27. I’m sexist
  28. I’m ornery
  29. I’m moody
  30. I’m inconsiderate
  31. I can be inconsolable
  32. I am hard to please
  33. I’m a pain-in-the-ass
  34. I can be angst and anxiety-ridden
  35. I’m petty
  36. I think I’m special
  37. I think I’m better than everyone
  38. I am dismissive
  39. I am judgmental
  40. I can be cutting
  41. I can be insulting and short
  42. I ghost people when I’m disappointed
  43. I can willfully ignore at will
  44. I am condescending
  45. I am irritable
  46. I can be tyrannical
  47. I can be crude with my potty mouth
  48. I can be offensive
  49. I can be a doormat
  50. I trust the wrong people
  51. I don’t trust people I should
  52. I’m a contrarian
  53. I can be blaming
  54. I can be shaming
  55. I’m willful
  56. I can be retaliatory
  57. I can be territorial
  58. I can be self-loathing
  59. I can be whiny
  60. I can be destructive
  61. I’m stubborn
  62. I am obstinate
  63. I can be materialistic
  64. I can be indignant
  65. I can be haughty
  66. I can be uptight
  67. I’m loud
  68. I’m obnoxious
  69. I can be doubting Thomas
  70. I get caught up in outing evil
  71. I can be vindictive
  72. I’m resentful
  73. I’m argumentative
  74. I’m overly confident
  75. I can be unsure and waffle
  76. I can be obtuse
  77. I can be depressing
  78. I can be a sad sack for days
  79. I’m paranoid
  80. I can hold a grudge
  81. I’m a provocateur trouble maker
  82. I’m an asshole
  83. I can be an emasculating bitch
  84. I can be cunty
  85. I will get even
  86. I seek vengeance for others
  87. I can make others wrong
  88. I can be violent
  89. I am brutally frank and hurtful
  90. I can be belligerent
  91. I have anger issues
  92. I am a rager
  93. I wanna fight
  94. I feel like hitting people
  95. I play devil’s advocate
  96. I push people’s buttons
  97. People bore me
  98. I’m disinterested
  99. I get tired and wanna give up
  100. I wanna just say FUCK THIS SHIT
  101. I hate the world
  102. I hate people
  103. I don’t believe in the good of the Universe or humans
  104. I’m skeptical
  105. I’m suspicious
  106. I hate liars
  107. I think the world is run by evil demons and psychopaths
  108. I get caught up in doom and gloom
  109. I sometimes believe evil will always win so what’s the fucking point?
  110. People only wanna use me for my resources
  111. I believe in the worst of people
  112. I am gullible
  113. I am needy of attention
  114. I am demanding
  115. I am cutthroat
  116. I am defensive
  117. I am hostile
  118. I am a bully
  119. I am a doormat
  120. I am naïve
  121. I am crazy
  122. I believe in nothing good
  123. I am superior
  124. I am inferior
  125. I am insensitive
  126. I am aloof
  127. I am competitive
  128. I am co-dependent
  129. I am dysfunctional
  130. I am too nice
  131. I put up with way too much bullshit
  132. I am exacting
  133. I am unforgiving
  134. I will take you out and take you down
  135. I am a victim
  136. I am physically aggressive
  137. I can be too passive
  138. I let people get away with shit
  139. I’m smarter than most everyone
  140. My Fuck you Fuck Off attitude is strong!

 

Whew!

These lists –this round of Self-Clearing, was very difficult for me to face. I’ve done hybrid versions of this process many, many, times over the course of the last thirty-plus years, and over the course of my own personal growth and evolution. I’ve made the assumption that processing gets easier as I get older, but honestly, that’s not necessarily true, especially when I’m processing through rough patches of great importance.

I spent a few days and then a day in isolation, reviewing my lists and owning my stuff and crying and journaling—I did a bunch of punching and kicking my 100-pound bag and did a bunch of square/polarities journaling exercises.

If you notice—my lists were very much polar opposites—indicating to me that I have all these qualities within me and that much of my Great Inner Work is about integrating these and moving into a NEUTRAL position so as to not get caught up in the pendulum swings and its whirly twirly spinning out of control.

After I made friends with my lists, I recited this prayer aloud, intending the following:

Mother Father God, Essence, Great Spirit, All that Is, I recognise my polarised states as Expressed through my Qualities of Light & Dark have existed in my Mind and ego patterning. I offer them up and ask that they are merged into a place of oneness and clarity – so that I may see more clearly who I really am, and so that I may live my highest truth and bring forth my most beloved intentions. I ask this with appreciation, knowing that my prayer has already been answered. ~ And so, it is.

In the face of what’s happening in our aggregate collective reality, I highly recommend undertaking This deep work, my friends. It’s the perfect way to Check yourself—Your Self-importance--arrogance and its opposites of Self-depreciation—Insecurities.

You will be required to make time and block out 48-72 hours to truly complete this process—so do plan your time accordingly. Make sure you have good food, your favourite treats, and water.

Create a beautiful space with incense and candles and nice lighting, and talismans and crystals available to help support your process.

Turn off WIFI, turn off your phone. Be available fully for yourself, only. If you have children, you may need to plan for child care or do you what you are able—or perhaps plan for another time.

Utilise all 7 of your Senses and when you feel tired, take a break and rest, take naps and baths and move your body with gentle exercise. Have your journal and pens at the ready. This process is the Ultimate in Self-Love and Self-care.

The steps once again are below in the description Box.

Ok, my lovebugs, that’s it, that’s my speech. I trust this is helpful and blesses you all with hope and clarity and compassion for the dancing of the Light and Dark with you. Particularly during this important time where the powers-that-wanna-be and their War for our consciousness-collective and individual—through their Divide & Conquer agendas—such that we turn against one another—are ON.

Let’s all do The Great Work—The Inner and Outer Great Work and collectively tell these demonic lower-astral plane entity mother fuckers to FUCK OFF.

We will continue this conversation—about The Great Work and learning how to invoke and activate your Superpower of Focus, master your Creative Energy, Materialise/Manifest Reality to rock your world on your terms regardless of the circumstances of the world at large.

I love you!