After waking in the morning and taking care of the beautiful animals I share my life with, I immediately jump straight into work.  I take no time for myself but constantly push forward (answering student and client emails, preparing the day's activities, and working on building my own business). However, right now, I'm taking the time to release my thoughts, to release the heaviness inside my chest, the heaviness that is squeezing me so tight I cannot breathe.  I'm not sure if what I feel is fear or sadness - it just feels really heavy.  I had a dream last night that there was a man in my life, and he was gentle, and he held me and I felt loved.   You see, I have vowed to give up on being in a relationship. It used to be something I wanted desperately, but the problem was the “desperation”. In the past,  I allowed people into my life that hurt me and the beautiful animals that trusted me to care for them. The fact that I let them down is one of my greatest sorrows.  I feel incredibly alone. I'm not sure if it is because society has indoctrinated most of the people that I physically come into contact with to think in such a way that is totally at odds with what I know in my heart.  I do see the importance of the work of Rudolph Steiner.  Ahriman and his agenda have hijacked the minds of so many. Those of us that know that there is a spiritual aspect to life are not being respected, nor is life being respected.  I am trying to heal myself, and I have begun working with the Heilkunst homeopathic practitioner to address what I feel to be a “spiritual disease”.  I try to act courageously, and not back down to the indoctrination that the “powers that should NOT be” have programmed into the minds of the people around me. But it hurts to see how programmed they are, and how they are willing to destroy me if it suits their agenda.  I want to be surrounded by people that would support me, people that would connect with me on a deeper level, and people that simply would not hurt me. I honestly can say that I do not feel any of this. Perhaps that's why, upon waking this morning, I wanted to hold on to that feeling of another human simply holding me. I've been having many dreams where I feel love and connection only to wake up to the reality that the only love and connection I truly have are with these beautiful souls in a fur body. I'm truly grateful for them being in my life. I will never put them in harm's way as I've done in the past. I've still not recovered from the horrific abuse the people in my recent life have done to me and my beloved fur angels.  Their actions are something I desperately need to recover from because now I trust no one and the shield that surrounds me is incredibly thick.  I'm praying that Heilkunst homeopathy will help to heal me. 

I will be sharing more about Heilkunst homeopathy and how my "mind, body, and soul" are responding to this therapy. I will of course also be sharing and helping individuals that want to align with Nature to help their bodies heal. However, the tools I have to assist with this primarily deal with the physical level of existence. Yes, there are Bach flowers I recommend that can address emotional concerns. But I do know that there is a deeper level of healing that is needed by the living souls that walk this earth. I apologize that I've been away for so long, I have needed time to myself.  I will be back on Friday. Blessings to you all!